During my life, I’ve struggled being able to enjoy being a fan. For many reasons, one being my thought that I can do anything if I put my mind to it. Not that this is a bad thing, it just has prevented me from enjoying events for what they are… perfect or flawed, I was unable to have the true “fan” experiance. As I conversed with others, I noticed a trend of talented people, you know, the real “go-getters,” having an issue with just relaxing and enjoying a performance or spectacle. There is always this need to tell oneself how they would do it better, or what is wrong with it, or how it should have gone.
Until I made a conscience effort to be a FAN, was I able to enjoy life for what it throws at me. Literally, I now revel in the chance to go to a CFL game, watch karaoke, or attend an open comic night. I get to enjoy the beauty and self expressive arts of others in the light it was intended.
Basically, I am saying this; we often see someone doing something awesome, stepping out of thier comfort zone and sharing. On Facebook I often see people tearing down or trying to disprove someone else attempt to connect or TMZ constanlty trying to tear down artists attempts to express themselves. I am making a conscious effor to be a fan of whatever comes my way, and I do this because I need fans in my life, I want fans in my life, I really want to be able to share myself with the world without fear of riducle but rather with open arms and a shit load of “atta-boys.”
Keep on doing your thing world. I am a born again fan. Ill even use pom poms… maybe…